My First Blog….So I got in my truck tonight…

However tonight I felt this strong feeling come over me that maybe its time for me to get a dog even though I said I would never do that to Hunter as he was irreplaceable.  I’m always alone and man I wish I had my Hunter to keep me company…but to get another dog would be almost sack religious and go against what I always said…Then I turned into the Trader Joes parking lot and saw the Pet Smart where I always got Hunters food and kinda smiled to myself as I remember how I would take Hunter to get his food and he would carry his leash in there in his mouth and how people would be amazed at the Dog who was like a real life scooby doo that would walk himself and and hangout with me like a person… and how great those to ride in the truck with my dog, my best friend…so long ago now almost a misty fog of memories…Man I would give amost anything to be irritated to have to run out and get him food late at night right now cause that would mean he was still alive.

So I sat there for a moment turned off my car and thought well If I ever got a dog again I would only do it if somehow Hunter was involved…maybe get a dog on Hunters  anniversary of his death in march like a phenoix rebirth or something cause I am weird like that…I would want the day I got the dog to reflect Hunters memory somehow so he would play a role in getting the new dog….then I thought well he died in March huh? Since my life has been so upside down now for so long I  thought what month is it anyway???  I really didn’t know if it was December or July for a solid 5 seconds as I sat there in the dull light of my car that had been turned off but the dash still lit up and tried to figure it out without looking at my watch…I really couldn’t do it …so I gave up and looked down at my  watch and turned the little light on my heart rate monitor watch to see what the hell the date was and it said Oct 16th..I was like ohh yeah October..laughed a little that I couldnt figure it out on my own…..and then I felt this floodgate of peace all at once….It was at that moment that  I realized Hunter had popped in my head for a reason……For on Oct 16th 1996 Hunter was born…he wanted to talk to me tonight I guess…Then I smiled and realized the song I didn’t want to hear when I got in my truck tonight and had turned off ….and this thought of gettng a new dog came to me at the high spot of 53 which I just now put togther in writting all of this!!!

The song I turned off on my cd player was the first song I ever wrote and just happens to be the song I worte about Hunters death…which was given to me in a dream I had had about him last summer 3 months after his death…I was chasing him and he was telling me it was ok ..he was ok…the first and only time I have ever had a dream about him……I was awoken with this melody in my head and I picked up that guitar I coudnt play and out came my first song.

What an awesome gift Hunter gave me tonight on his birthday.

Happy Birthday Hunter.

I cant wait to see you in heaven one day.